Before the Death Cult

I come from a working class background, my Geordie mother was a factory assembly line worker at the Brush and my Yorkshire father a printers Clark at Ladybird books. Due to marriage break down of my parents and my mother falling ill with paranoid schizophrenia I spent a large part of my childhood orphaned in care of social services; as a full ward of court from eleven years old I moved over fifty six times unsettled between foster parents and children’s homes.

In the early to late nineties I lived in a sub culture know as the “new age travellers”. I was also active in the 1990’s environmental direct action movement campaigning against the UK governments destructive road building schemes. In 1999 I briefly left the movement and (for a mere few months) studied both politics and law at Ruskin College, Oxford. Whilst studying at Oxford I gained life membership to Oxford Union debating society.

In early 2000 I made a series of radical environmentalist short films which accompanied as an attached CD with a publication of the Schnews annual year book. I distanced myself from the movement when Anti-white Marxist rhetoric manifested through George Soros funding and growing influence over the Indymedia News Project; in effect creating and steering the racially oppressive, disturbingly violent anti-White ANTIFA movement that we have come to know of today.


In two thousand and six I was found as an incarnation of Shakthi child goddess Sri Bahucharaji Mataji in the northern state of Gujarat, India. Whilst at the Shakthi peeth I aligned the crown chakras of over one hundred thousand Hindu devotees in a devotional town named Becharaji.

I resided and lived as an Indian in India for just over one year, I passed the temple test (to see if I was an incarnation of their Goddess) but fearing the temple would become a prison I refused to read Shloka to the Bala Tripura Sundri Yantra; this caused much disarray; eventually marking an end to my stay in India.

The western media, both newspapers and television reported and broadcast my experiences at the temple in India all over the world. The vast majority of these ‘reports’ where riddled with inaccuracies and sometimes more than often embellished with outright lies.

“The foolish disregard me, when clad in human semblance….” – The Bhagavad-Gita, IX, verse 11.

Not once (with one exception) was my gender identity respected but rather negatively sensationalised; reporters deliberately changed my name (from Pema to Pamela), tried to bribe my brother, frightened my ill schizophrenic mother, hired snoops to spy on me around the temple and even masqueraded as a devotee using a hidden microphone / zoomed in camera.

Returning back to the UK failing to recast (after being tortured senseless) I became vulnerable and homeless on the streets of central London. I sort to heal and bless everybody I encountered, I wasn’t interested in who they had been, who they thought they were going to be but only reacted through how they presented in the present (in the here and now); I believed in innocence, that every human was coerced into doing bad things because a cruel world, boiling in detriment was cast as inherently bad.

Moi surviving harassment and destitution, pictured sat homeless on filthy paving slabs of Westminster, London, 2010.

Every culture and ethnicity was openly embraced by myself; indiscriminate of colour or creed. I openly gave blessing freely without asking for return as I walked and lived through the highs and lows of London’s diverse multicultural communities. Out of everybody I blessed only one ethnicity of people reacted badly and began to negatively encroach upon my life with extreme debilitating prejudice: African Negroes.


Meanwhile the Christian church had covertly equated these blessings as a ‘mistake’ and later went on to denounce such blessing as being attained by, acquired through sin.  Their ultimate solution was to cross cast my blessing into a Negro child size midget through creating and projecting great disparity to descending my life into the most appalling misery imaginable.

“I believe in one God, and no more; and I hope for happiness beyond this life.

I do not believe in the creed professed by the Jewish church, by the Roman church, by the Greek church, by the Turkish church, by the Protestant church, nor by any church that I know of. My own mind is my own church.

All national institutions of churches, whether Jewish, Christian or Turkish, appear to me no other than human inventions, set up to terrify and enslave mankind, and monopolize power and profit.

Whenever we read the obscene stories, the voluptuous debaucheries, the cruel and tortuous executions, the unrelenting vindictiveness with which more than half the Bible is filled, it would be more consistent that we call it the word of a demon than the word of God.

It is a history of wickedness that has served to corrupt and brutalize mankind; and, for my part, I sincerely detest it, as I detest everything that is cruel”
– Thomas Paine – Age of Reason

An unannounced war of insidious, detrimental encroachment upon the very essence of my being. The methodology of the death cults answer to destroying love is to brutalise my enlightened gene keys with racially targeted miscegenation which included sexual assaults. abductions and rape, as they seek to insert the barbaric, ugly, black monstrosity into my white genetic bloodline; in deformation of my Tao; whist desolating my image with nihilist hatred.

“The Jews were responsible for bringing Negroes into the Reich land with the ultimate idea of bastardising the White Race which they hate thus lowering it’s political and cultural level so that the Jew might dominate”. – Adolph Hitler

In the first year, late 2010 I experienced over seventeen thousand timed stalking encounters (correlated to the I-Ching / Tao) and many corresponding ritualised abuses from Negro members of what I now know and call the ‘Death Cult’.

Brutalised numb, despondent with sleep deprivation and trauma I sought refuge, first unsuccessfully from Hindu temples (not one Hindu has helped me since my return to the UK) and then mistakenly with dire consequences; insidious Christian charity:

  • Connections at Saint Martins, Trafalgar Square, London:- An evil day centre / night shelter attempting to create Jesus the Beggar from archetype and allegory by cycling desolated homeless through it’s totalitarian ‘Word became Flesh’ control covenant centred around the neighbouring ‘Saint Martin in the Fields‘ church.

“Let me help you or you’ll drown said the monkey putting the fish up the tree”

  • HTB (Holy Trinity Brompton) Onslow Square. Service users complained of being harassed by volunteering church members when outside some distance from it’s Kensington day centre. Creepy HTB ordained priest said he would be discussing my time in India with shadowy HTB Theologian group. Crusading HTB is founding church of the ‘Alpha Course’ boasting to have indoctrinated over 27 million people.

Eventually the abuses got so horrific (my radius bone in my right arm kick broken in half by a passing Rastafarian reprobate) that I moved out of London and travelled across the UK; however as the death cult grew in hatred the abuses followed demoralising my Tao with detriment all over the country.

In reaping reward from cultivating persistent failure they have proved Hitler right…

“Christianity is a rebellion against natural law, a protest against nature. Taken to its logical extreme, Christianity would mean the systematic cultivation of human failure”.
— Adolph Hitler

I strongly suspect this prolific stalking and harassment was networked through the Alpha course and Holy Trinity Brompton; although without acquiring testimony from a credible witness I am unfortunately unable to officially substantiate.

After seven years of desensitisation through this ‘all out’ deformation I have become completely immune to their racist atrocities (miscegenation rape, mutilations and sacrifices) a systematic terrorising horror perpetuated with increasing barbarous evil upon my lineage.

When death cult Negroes have finished wasting away stolen life, depleted they rot from death in desecration of remembrance. – Blodeuwedd 2017

If the “Out of Africa” evolution theory was correct (which it isn’t) ascension from THREE THOUSAND GENERATIONS has been extracted through horrific terror and wastefully squandered into utter nothing. The Death Cult has never gained consent through me to enter into my life and are still to this day both refuted and factored out. Death Cult advocates say that “god must be shared” but not once did the “all out” greedy Negro share stolen lineage with another other lineage; nor did they leave anything untouched for me.

Moi taking a ‘selfie’ in the Highlands whilst travelling on train to Inverness, Scotland; late 2015.

I currently reside in the Stroud Valley in Gloucestershire; here I am gathering the necessary paperwork together to obtain a passport so that I may return to Asia, reconnect and recast where they’ll never be able to hurt me and my devotees ever again.

  • I have never begged for money.
  • I have never been christened, confirmed or baptised.
  • I have been hand-fasted but never been married.
  • DNA test results (My Heritage) declare me 100% White, demographics showed I’m:  56.2% North West European, 26.9% Irish, Scottish and Welsh and 16.9% Scandinavian.
  • Both my parents are dead; I have an estranged sibling but no children, I have absolutely no desire to become a parent.
  • I have never abused a child in my life, I have no criminal record of cautions or convictions stating such.
  • I am asexual, I choose to venerate love through platonic correspondence involving consensual exchanges of mutuality.
  • I have been living in full female role since 2003 (fourteen years) with a treated clinical diagnosis of gender dysphoria.
  • Only countries I have visited are France, Spain and India.
  • I have never advocated miscegenation, in fact I’ve gone out of my way to discourage it.
  • I have never been diagnosed with a major mental illness.
  • I have taken Bodhisattva vows and refuge with a Tibetan Tulku Lama (Mahayana Buddhism).
  • I have never voted for a political party, I am not and never have been registered on the electoral role.
  • Pre India I was a recognised Druid, a new age traveller and through protesting non-violent direct action an environmentalist; I also campaigned for animal rights and promoted issues of social change.
  • In the seven years I have been annihilated I haven’t harmed anybody; honouring my vow of Ahymsa; in refute of all out adversity unto that vow.
  • Negroes were never interested and play no part in my life until I returned to the UK from India; I have never consented and absolutely objected to them depriving me of my life.
  • Any negative assertions I have made have been reactionary from most extreme provocation imaginable. I do not purposely cast unfounded remarks upon anybody.

So there you have it, I’m a real bad person and so undeserving to bless people, oh how the terrible White Privilege persists despite me being deprived of my entire life; butchered and fed to greedy, hapless Negroes of Black Privilege; who never actually shared anything with anyone, ever.

Systematic Cultivation of Human Failure